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Are you looking for something you read here, and find it has changed? A note about my purpose and process:

I began this blog as a joke, one day in 2013 when I wanted to get some things off my chest.

As many have guessed, I wrote the first DTFM post in about eight minutes one day back when I was a grad student, and back when nobody ever ever read my blog. There was this news site I liked, The Media Coop, and an editor there mentioned one day that they like when members use the blog spaces because it kept the site feeling loved, so on a lark while finishing a PhD and working on more ‘serious’ academic articles, I also started messing around with thinking things over by writing to myself online.

It wasn’t trying to be a public blog. The idea had never occurred to me that I could be a public blogger. I had friends who wrote little blogs that they shared among their friend group and that’s what I thought I would do too. I wrote about some things I was figuring out that I was experiencing in organizing spaces, and I shared them with a few friends, and that was that. That was all I expected or could have even imagined at the time.

I had posted maybe four or five things up on there when the first post went viral. The blog went from no readers at all to, suddenly, thousands. It was all hilarious and enjoyable and I had no idea how anything related to blogging worked at all. The very first Dating Tips for the Feminist Man post was written very, very fast, mostly just me talking to myself in my head to one specific guy I was having a very confusing interaction with that I needed to figure out. I didn’t even have the words for figuring all this out yet, let alone these concepts. I was writing to and for myself, not thinking that anyone else would bother to read it.

Many of us grow up trained to accept being treated in reckless, unempathetic or irresponsible ways, and I was trying to come to trust myself. This one person had acted in ways that, while not malicious, were not all that self-aware, while calling himself very publically and very loudly a feminist and cultivating a reputation that was a big part of how he had gained my physical and emotional trust. Now I know that this is a pattern, but this was my first exposure to it and at the time I was confused and scared. Writing the post was just a way to help me get my head clear.

I thought maybe three friends and my cat would read it. (OK, I don’t have a cat. But then, cats don’t read so it doesn’t matter? Then again neither could my actual rabbit George, who I guess was the real-world equivalent of the cat in ‘three friends and my cat?’ if we were being really specific.)

In any case, thinking no one would ever read it, I slammed the first post out, gave it a sarcastic title (‘dating tips for the feminist man?’ like, really? recognize your own emotions? communicate honestly and act accountable? these are what we still need as ‘dating tips‘? like why don’t you already know this?) took about two seconds to pick the most ridiculous picture google gave me for search term ‘feminist man,’  posted it, and went off to do other things.

Unbenownst to me the internets really likes six word titles, anything to do with dating, and bright pink pictures of whatsisface, the dude in the picture.

The friend who moderated the Media Coop got in touch a few hours later to say ‘hey did you know your post is going viral?’ and I had the WHAT? of discovering you write something just for yourself to think things through and discover a lot of other human beings on the planet are thinking through the same things you are. Guess when you’re experiencing structural violence, so are lots of other people. Guess that’s why they call it ‘structural.’

In the meantime, life went on. I finished that degree, got a job, and got on with life, and it looked like that would be the end of that – the axiomatic five minutes of fame that the internet age gives a lot of us.

But that wasn’t the end! Turned out the DTFM joke post was just kind of tapping the mic: ‘Cough cough, this thing on?’  – an opener, not the whatever the purpose was of this thing that was writing itself through me.

The Nurturance Culture post, that went up (by coincidence, I really didn’t plan this) just a few days before Valentine’s Day 2016, went bigger than anything I could ever have imagined from a one-off blog written at my kitchen table. It’s still small potatoes in the publishing world, but I’m used to academic writing, where you work on one thing for 2 or 3 (or 5) years and then fifteen people you really respect in your field read it if you’re really lucky and that’s considered a good response. (I still love that kind of writing – but this kind gives me room for a more embodied writing experience.) Folks have asked whether the post was part of the metoo moment and – no – the nurturance essay was written in February 2016 and metoo was in October 2017. They were, I guess, part of the cultural moment, but not directly related.

The reverberations of the Nurturance post have gone around the world and come back with echoes that, like a strange and terrible sonar, have helped me begin to cognitively map out parts of the ‘contours’ of cishetpatriarchy and white supremacy. Coming after a time of long silence, this experience has been like stumbling into conversations where those who survive the  oppression in our world and who are struggling to dismantle it from many angles at the same time are all talking.

Some of these edges of oppression impact me directly in the most frightening of ways, where I have been hit at various times in my life with poverty, and over the course of my lifespan with multiple instances of very serious and sustained gendered violence in varied forms, physical and psychological, along with the erasure and deep silencing of my voice; and some kind of violence pass me by or actively position me as an agent of harm inside structures of violence, who is morally required to develop deep empathy and political awareness of where I am located in those structures, in order to live in integrity within myself and in my relationships with others.

I hope to embrace these echoes, in all the pain that they raise, and do justice to the work, for all of us who want to grow as human beings and be good to the ones we dare to stand with and those – friends, lovers, family, and the human and non-human interconnected webs of creatures  – we love.

What I have since understood is that the way I approach this blog may not be the standard way. I really am not “a blogger” except by complete fluke, and I began this to meet healing needs and in a particular way. As the blog has grown in readers I have realized I really need the process to continue the way it began. I am a survivor of multiple kinds of violations of my body and of my mind. I began the blog to have a place where I decide what my boundaries are and no one else is in control here but me, in part in order to learn how my edges work and where my boundaries are. As a result of having begun it in this liberating way, and in the interest of transparency: I view the blog as a an entirely autonomous space, almost like the experience of sovereignty that I cultivate in my body, in which I and only I have full autonomy over all decisions. This has been needed as part of the experience of healing from immense long term boundary violations that I have only begun to understand. That does not mean that I think that humans are not interconnected; the lining of a cell both connects and distinguishes that cell from the others around it, and the membrane that divides this blog from the rest of the thinking world is akin to the boundaries of my body, my mind, and my spirit – in this space I want to practice thar experience if total sovereignty, in which the decisions take here are mine to determine, end of line.

The thinking here developed as a means to conceive of my own body, my own mind, my fundamental self, as boundaried and within my discretionary zone. As a result in this space I revel in taking full decision making authority over every single thing that happens here – I feel free to edit, revise, add, and to decide at whim what goes up and what does not. We get so few of those kinds of physically private places, and this one is mine. This absolute decision making authority in this place has been absolutely vital as a container and boundary around my mind as I have been healing from significant sustained psychological abuse, and discovering what the boundaries of my mind and body are.

Quite simply, I do things the way I want to do them here. The way I decide who can enter my home, who gets to shape what I believe, or who can enter my body, I have generated a space here that is entirely and only mine to discern the edges of and contain. The way that I have chosen to use this space is in a very self-trusting way, honouring the freedom of conceptual play that has shaped what brings me joy all of my life.

In practice, that shapes the writing process. From the blog’s inception, I have always posted half-formed pieces before they were done, or even began by posting one line or one word, and then actively and visibly revised in public as I went, because this is what brings me joy, and because I am trying to come into words about things that exist, that many of us know and feel, but that often have no words.

The posts go up only partly formed, as I struggle to come into words, and they send out that sonar ‘ping’ – and then I feel out what that ping reveals, the patterns of culture, thought, and belief in the world, and in response I hone and write and revise until the truth of what I want to say comes clear, like a statue shaking itself out of the sand.

That means that posts continue to be edited long after they go up, as new knowledge, awareness, or sometimes just the right words finally come available for things that I could not say when I began.

That means if you come back to a post, looking for a specific word or phrase, and find it’s gone – you’re not imagining it! They continually change. They will continue to change, because I use this space as a relaxing oral-narrative-influenced autonomous place to figure out what my body is telling me, to catch what I hear in the sonic echoes around me, in a free and very liberating way. Coming out of an academic setting and three years into burnout and after experiencing sustained psychological abuse that took away my agency, my voice, and my trust in my perceptions, this freedom to write my own way has felt tremendously, tremendously necessary, more than I can say. And it may all be slowly honing towards a book, which would of course come out in more of a ‘fixed’ form.

So honestly, this blog – the title, the image – it all began as a joke. As a joke to myself, thinking no one else would be reading along. Turned out the universe has a sense of humour. Thanks for reading everyone! I’m floored. And incredibly honoured to know you.

Dating Tips for the Feminist Man was originally housed at the Media Coop, and is archived here

Do you love speculative fiction and social justice? Cipher is a speculative fiction novella that deals with the transformations our planet is undergoing, and the inverting and undoing of cultures of domination. It calls for ‘turning inside out’ the rigid walls of white supremacy, patriarchy, capitalism, and colonization. Learn more about Cipher here.

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    1. I looked into how to do this: I think there is a follow button at the bottom right of the front page? I’m not sure yet how to put one on the contact page. Will take advice 🙂

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    1. hi Cathy, the term got coined here, yes. … it came from a set of lived experiences that i was dealing with and figuring out at the time i was writing it…. was trying to figure out some things that were happening to me that didn’t have language i had seen. and put those things together and then it kind of touched a chord. i think the connection between the psychological literature and the cultural was an insight of the nurturance culture piece on this blog. the attachment literature though comes out of the work of the attachment theorists in psychology – there are links to books that influenced this on the blog pages if that helps? and depending which bits of this interest you there are definitely also influences i could direct you to, but the concept as such comes from here. thanks so much for being in touch!


  1. Omg…I love this blog! The world needs these thoughts and challenges! Poignant, outstanding…plus I love the tip jar, I may have to borrow that for my blog which has had more information ‘taken’ then I have been credited with, but in 2012 when I started from my kitchen table, who knew, right? Thank you for sharing.

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    1. thank you! you made my day 🙂
      what’s your blog? wasn’t able to get to it through the comment link. hope the tip jar works for you 🙂 It’s not used a lot but sometimes there are very generous surprises.


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